Have you ever done something so stupid you just want to throw yourself out of a second-story Provo library window? I have. Just did, in fact. And the pavement below ain't looking so bad.
I've been stuck on a certain chapter for a month now. This is what happens when you don't outline. What can I say? Outlining for me is like curb-stomping my own teeth (don't know how I'd accomplish that... shutup, I get to choose the similes around here). I abhor outlining; that's just how it is. There's a problem with this, though. When I'm an idiot and save over something I didn't mean to, I lose whatever I saved over. It's gone, bye, bye.
I managed to unstick myself in this chapter. It took a week and two Fridays of writing, but I did it. I was finally able to move on. (I can't write the next chapter until the one I'm on is finished... probably another downside to not outlining). So I pulled out my flash drive to back up the day's work... I have two windows open--my flash drive, and the folder on my computer with my chapters in it--and I start dragging files over. It wasn't until five minutes later that I realized I did my dragging in the wrong direction. I pulled the file off of my flash drive and replaced the one on my computer.
"Ah, shit," I said to myself (cussing in the Provo library).
"Oh well. Sucks, but I'll just rewrite what I wrote today." It's still fresh in my mind so I'll cruise through it and be done.
I opened up the file to start rewriting...
"Ah, double shit! Shit! I didn't back up the changes I made last week! Now two days of writing are gone!" (This is where I started looking out the window). "Son of a bitch!"
And now I lost an entire chapter. I could get most of what I wrote today down, but last week... that was so long ago. I can't remember the crap I came up with last week! So it's gone. And I'm really pissed. The lost chapter was nearly 4,000 words, and I typically write 1,000 words an hour. So that's four bloody hours to rewrite chapter seventeen. Might as well give up now, and jump out of the damn window.
I was so excited (an hour ago) that Gunlord was back on track. I've got to hurry and finish, after all... since I told a few editors at Worldcon last month that the book was completed...
I think I'll start on my next project now. Goodbye, Gunlord. The last 9 months sure have been fun.
*cries like a baby, kicks out windowpane, dives head-first to meet the sidewalk*